Saturday, August 29, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
me is me.i cant change myself totally.my character is cold and boring....{others may think this way}but im not.i wanted to express myself.........i bottom down all the emotion..it feels bad.love each other is to understand each other but somehow it was not tat way.why must we express but not use our heart to feel?
waiting for the sunrise
life means to be very wonderful but for me i tink not really.17 tis year going 18 soon but achieve nothing.haiz maybe time and hardwork can prove for me something.love...wad is love?i had taste once befor but lose it quickly.i really wan to feel love once again.i will be contended....maybe i was not good enough?we must pursuit our own happiness.i wanted to pursuit one but no one wan my love..lol is must be a joke.
waiting for the sunrise
Friday, August 28, 2009
once u made a mistake,u regreted it for life..everyone need a second chance,but who will be the one tat willing to give it?young and innocent,everyone encounter it but why i am the one who encounter it and yet so hard to forget,i wonder?is must be a joke!i wanted to make a change,totally change it.does the school mind wad have i done?is they willing to give a second chance?haiz....i must show them wad i"m made of,i wont give up.the key to success is to keep low profile,nobody will notice u nor the school.but lonely will be with u.am i able to make it?i hope so.will the school remind me of wad have i done last time.the school wont but i do.my brain keep reminding me of it.maybe im the one tat which need to change but not to blame others.do i look cold?i wish im not.wish tat god will show me the way.........
waiting for the sunrise
Thursday, August 27, 2009
my dear yaoyao..u are truly a brave girl.i must learn the courage u have.u are just 18 and yet need to face the ugly side of the world.losing your father at 16,u need to be strong.u did it.u work to take care of your sibling.who can do tat also,i wonder.cases like this is really miserable.learn from her.ppl survive in such a
circumstances but ppl with happiness around them,take things for granted.i bless them.............
circumstances but ppl with happiness around them,take things for granted.i bless them.............
waiting for the sunrise
once u are drive into a dead corner,u shouted for help.help.....help....silence..the sound of raindrops deeply affected u.u look weak to other but does its really matter.imagine u are poor and lowly educated.how ppls or relative will look at u.they will run when they saw u.they even stab u at the back when u truly need encouragement.the view of others really does not matter.but its really diffcult to run away from it.human is angle in disguise....so fake sometimes.u can trust them is really a issue?.feeling low all the time make u look like a walking machine.u just live because u are born to be but never really think the reason behind it.i so confuse sometime.i have a reason.my parent.they tend to look after me because they have the responsible to do so.i think deeply,my heart sink.so pround to be with them but yet unable to lift my head up infront of strangers.i really need to wake up from my dream.i was in a dilema of making decision that affect my life and my parent too.when they turn old,who is going to look after them.i wonder if i was able to do so.i must.i must really work hard to do so.when i look into their eye,it full of sorrow and concern.concern about me all the time.i was in the age of a adult soon but yet a mind of a teenager.so brave to admit it but lack of confidence to do so.i must grow up..overcome all kinds of troubles is wad i must learn.no use daydreaming all the time.touching my heart,i feel alot of emotion.scare of being hurt,afraid to attempt,lack of confidence.where i can find my confidence?time matter.after a rain,sun rises.grabbing hold of your belief can help u.i truly believe it works.my god pls lend me to the path i must walk on.........
waiting for the sunrise
was its so diffcult to find a fren which can lend their heart to somebody when they need help.its just a pull which can save u.i hope i can find one,sad to say i dnt have.why human alway wanted to make thing complicated.i may look strong but yet in contrast....eventually u just need to care about yourself..be selfish sometime wont matter anyway..wanted to be friendly but yet noting in return...my beloved god....pls guide me to where i belong.a place where i can be stressless,secondly,a place tat a true love can be felt.wanted to give care and concern but nobody wanted them..the sky remain greydish all the time until u appear tat turn it blue.wad can i do,how long must i wait to have u.smile hung on faces everyday but their heart was bleeding.scare of being hurt,reveal themself at home when nobody is around.this is ridiculous,human tend to look strong but once u fall badly,u cry and cry.wad u mean by a perfect person.i wonder.i was alway not perfect.i was the worst of all.remind myself to be strong but seem diffcult for me.the outcome alway the same..........lonely..
waiting for the sunrise